By Dan Polecheck
And at three Jesus cried out with a loud voice, “Eloi, Eloi, lemá sabachtháni?” which is translated,“My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?” – Mark 15:34
I had a pretty good day after my therapy yesterday, but during the evening last night the pain was pretty intense. It was almost to the point that it was unbearable. I had trouble doing anything. I even had the thoughts of “Why me Lord?”.
How did I feel about those thoughts? I didn’t feel good about it. I felt embarrassed. I felt that I was being a wuss and was self centered. Second thoughts were “Man up! God is allowing this for a reason.
Do I know the reason? No.
The above verse came to mind and I thought, “even Jesus had these thoughts, so it must be okay for me to have them.”
So, I had a argument with myself. I was trying to justify my thoughts. All this is running through my mind. It turned into a vicious circle.
When I get this way, the only thing I can do is to pray about it.
It came to mind :
It is in these moments of separation from His Father that He truly displayed His love for me and His absolute faith in God. It is in that specific moment that He took all my sins, and the sins of others (actually everyone’s).
Christ suffered more pain at this moment, more than He had suffered added together during His time on earth.
In this single moment, that He realized the purpose for His death on the cross. I began to realize that at this very moment as He hung in agony on the cross that He paid the price for my sins.
I can not fathom the enormity or the magnitude of His feelings as He went through this time of sacrifice for me and for everyone else.
Jesus went through this all for me because of the awesome love that He had and has for me. He went through this separation from the Father so that I will never have to go through this separation myself.
Thank you Jesus for taking that pain way from me, taking away that feeling of abandonment and assuring for me that I will never have to be separated from my God.
And by the way Lord, thank you for the pain. It has brought me closer to you.